What Sarah Said

2012.

2012-01-01T16:28:00.004+08:00

Its the year 2012. We aren't dead...... yet. :)

Realized I didn't make a list of 2011 new year resolutions. So can't say whether I achieved much last year. Now that it's over, my mind has very vague memories on 2011, apart from the recent trip to Taiwan.

This year 2012. Honestly I'm afraid. Not because of some prediction that we're going to die soon. But I fear of change. I fear the challenges that lie ahead of me. I've tasted opportunity, but right now the path seems so ever blurred from my vision.

Of course God is always by my side. And I thank him for that. Anything is possible with Him.

2012 seems like a year where I'll need to fight harder! I'll need that extra courage & extra preserverance, extra strength and extra determination to overcome this time.

So for now, brace yourselves.

The new year awaits us..............

S

Unwanted feelings

2010-05-17T21:54:00.003+08:00

Whisky is the new dog that we adopted.
It didn't make the pain go away.
Whisky's cute & adorable. But all I could think was how much I miss Zipper.

It's true when they say that each time you think of the loved ones you've lost, the pain is more bearable.
Why? Because the mind & soul becomes numb to it all.
I still break down once in while.
I know some of you out there would think I'm crazy, or like ' what can't you just get over it.'
Haiz. Easier said than done I guess.

Anyways another bugging problem is......
As much as I say I don't care, I think I do.
But it's just so disrespectful & hurtful, when your own mother doesn't acknowledges you when after a whole day of work, you enter the room and say " Hi Mum".
And then silence....... (As if I am talking to myself or the walls of my parent's room).
I'm probably stubborn & waiting for things to happen.
But I am tired as well.
The whole second child syndrome just plays in my head
It's just very sad to know, your own mother does not have faith in most things that you do.
I don't want to prove her wrong, why?
Because aren't mothers suppose to have faith in their children no matter what?

Sighs. Ignore me.

Just needed to get these unwanted feelings out.

Am so not looking forward to the Japan flight. I have no idea why.

Your heart is an empty room

2010-05-08T01:47:00.002+08:00

I don't know whats wrong with me today.
I feel nauseous, thanks to my virgin attempt of playing L4d.
To add on, I just feel there's nothing to look forward in my life.

I sometimes wish you were better. And I wish I'd stop comparing.

Am I being selfish?

Aircon is a MUST HAVE!

2010-05-05T21:14:00.005+08:00

If you live in Singapore, an AIRCON is A MUST HAVE.
Without it, you will die of the intense heat.
You perspire as you sleep. How gross is that??????

Which leads to the the fact that I am going to have NICE NEW CUPBOARDS!!!!!

Snowy Flowy. Snow Flow

My new comfy bed. I am considering buying more comfortable bedsheets. More threadcount, the better sleep I'd have.

And Day 1 of the construction site of the cupboards. Existing cupboards thrown away.

The last update is, dearest boyfriend has started school. And I am pretty happy that he is.

Ooooh. And I might be going Japan. WHoohooo.

Love ,
Sarah

2010-05-01T12:22:00.002+08:00

So, I finally decided to write something today.

Here are 5 fast facts:

1) I'm still FAT.
2) I'm still mourning for Zipper
3) I'm starting to like my job
4) I so need to start saving for trips & future
5) I am sick today.

Love,
Sarah

Wish you were here beside me.

2010-03-02T21:39:00.004+08:00

I miss your furry presence.
I miss your kind gentle eyes.
I miss the way you'd faithfully come to me when you hear my whistles.
I miss your greedy self while feeding you treats.
I miss your barks & howls.
I miss having you wait for me while I bathe.
I miss your small little wagging tail.
I miss holding you so close to me.
I miss your smell, even though sometimes you smell so bad.
I miss burying my face into your warm black fur.

I just miss you, Zippy.
I miss every single little thing about you.
I love you so much, with all my heart.

Here's to you Zipper.
2001 to 28th Jan 2010.

I know I'll see you again.

Could this be a blessing in disguise?

2010-01-10T13:14:00.003+08:00

My 1st meeting with the bosses, and I came out with a blanked OMG face.
There are so many things I don't understand.
So many concepts & abbreviations.
And a whole list of duties & responsibilities are thrown at me.

I questioned God, is this the right path you have shown me?
Am I really capable of performing well @ this job?
Do I really have both the physical & mental strength to pull through?

And I remembered that, God only asks of us one thing.
That is just to trust him no matter what.
To have faith in him, that he will be there when I need him.

I just pray that He will provide me with the strength to overcome this transition period.

2010

2010-01-02T13:04:00.003+08:00

Reflecting back on 2009.
I'm not sure if I changed for the best or for the worst.

Am really blessed by God.
He faithfully delivered his promises to me.
Through God's amazing grace, I finally graduated.
He even provided me a path which led to a permanent job.
He gave me a wonderful family. He gave me Nelson, who loves me for who I am.
He surrounded me with friends whom I can rely on.
What more can I ask for?

I just pray that He'll still be there guiding me through this next phase in my life.
My career. My family. My boyfriend. My friends. Most of all, myself.

Anyways,
my 2010 resolutions.

1) LOSE WEIGHT. (Something that I still have not achieve.)
2) Spend more time with family
3) Treasure the important people around me.
4) Practice some self control on gossiping/stalking.

That's about it for now.

Wish me luck on my new job starting 4th Jan.

Change

2009-12-19T03:49:00.002+08:00

Change.
The word brings such insecurity.
Pulling away from your comfort zone.
It is inevitable.

Family. Friends. Boyfriend. Career. Myself.
2010 will certainly be different.
Praying hard that God will be with me throughout the journey once again.

I believe that the choices I made in 2009, are for the better. I hope.

Something I hate to admit.

2009-11-27T00:34:00.002+08:00

Friends come and go as they please.
Sometimes I just find this hard to accept.

A hole in my heart.

2009-11-21T19:29:00.003+08:00

There was a time I yearn so much to be closer to you.
I felt your presence. I felt your love. I felt your blessings.
It was a joy to praise & worship you.

Now that I am ever so far away from you.
You are still guiding me somehow. I know it. I feel it.
Assuring me you're always there & ready to welcome me back in to your arms.

But things are not the same right here right now..
And I just don't know how I can be that very same person as I used to be.

There's no care from you

2009-11-07T01:08:00.002+08:00

I'm starting to feel comfortable where I'm at.
Not sure if it's a good sign or not.....
Well my colleagues @ HSBC are surprisingly nice & fun to hang out with.
As the saying goes, 'Never judge a book by it's cover'.
Did I tell you my boss is a really a very sincere kind hearted man?
In fact, he's quite charming in some way.
Time shall reveal where I stand in the company.. soonish at the end of the yr.

Been putting on a lot of weight. Which totally sucks. :(
Working from the desk, makes you eat like crazy.
Also, been burying a lot of unwanted feelings.
Thus explains the excessive eating. Sighs.
Food makes me happy. They are just so comforting.
I know bad excuse.....

I so need to stop procrastinating.
And start doing the things I crave to do.
Someone told me this, 'What's the point of thinking so much, when you don't put it to action?'
Made a lot of sense. But girls are girls. We like to think think think think think!
Right. I think I've blabbered enough.
Goodnight.

I miss your presence somehow. :(

pms status alert

2009-11-04T23:15:00.003+08:00

Yes, I totally agree on what yoda says.
Fear leads to Hurt.
Hurt leads to Anger.
Anger leads to Hate.
Hate leads you to the dark side. LOL.

Am currently now in the anger to hate stage.
I should have never started out that path. Seriously.

Note to self: I am in pms status.

Procastination

2009-10-04T09:38:00.002+08:00

I landed myself a job.
Hopefully I'd be converted to a perm in 3 months time.
I am suppose to feel relieved & satisfied.
But I'm not.
All I'm feeling is I'm going to miss lazing around at home.
No more late mornings, tv shows & outings in the afternoons.
Sighs.

The minutes that haunts me

2009-09-17T22:52:00.002+08:00

I admire those who sleep within seconds.
It's like 1 2 3...zZzzz. Think Madagascar's Melman the giraffe.

Here's the scenario.
My body is tired from being a couch potato.
My mind however is zooming with millions of thoughts & feelings.

Flashbacks. Memories which brings me sadness, pain , low self esteem, etc.
The 'What if' moments never fail to appear. Or rather the many things which I regret......
And then, there are the 'Worries'. Top of the list is 'Get a job now'.
To add on, the 'What's wrong with me?' kind of questions starts popping up like crazy.

That night I am put to the test. This intense period where I start closing my eyes shut with the comfort of my bolster, breathing in harder than usual, drawing the image of the thought that has been placed in mind before me.

I get so scared & panicky sometimes, that some nights I just feel like running away from all these issues.

The funny thing is, I want to talk to someone about all those thoughts. But by the time I am awake the next morning, I am totally blank. I can't seem to remember what are the things bothering me. And then it's back again by night. It's like a vicious cycle.

Some days I'm lucky. The thoughts are of Happiness, Love, Laughter. Bad days are definitely more than lucky days.

But one thing for sure, I seriously have a huge problem with myself.

Kate Spade.

2009-09-08T22:42:00.000+08:00

I've set my eyes on a new wallet.
Previous wallet was a gift from the girls from fossil.
So far, these 2 really caught my attention.
And I really like em both. sighs.

Wallet #1

Kate Spade Westbury Lisa. White.

This is the inside of it. Loved the vertical stripe pattern.
The whole wallet is leather material.
Like that it's simple & white.

Wallet #2

Kate Spade Lincoln Road Lisa. White.

This wallet is patented. Really need to take care of it.
Can't lay around newspapers & magazines.
I like the metal plate of the brand Kate Spade there.

Hmmm.. Which one should I choose?

Surviving the way I should

2009-09-04T16:00:00.000+08:00

Decided to wash my face properly.
Spread Laneige water sleeping pack cream on my face.
Apply moisturizing cream on infected itchy leg skin.
Resumed playing World of Warcraft (not offically.)
Watching House & CSI Miami on AXN 11-12,12-1.
Started to play SIMS 3, but I didn't save thanks to an msn msg.
Given the opportunity to have 2 interviews next week, Monday & Tuesday.

What's left?
To cut one's hair soon.
To exercise one's body soon.
To stop scratching infected areas!
To give Church and Lifegroup another chance.
To satisfy HUGE CRAVING FOR SASHIMI!

Disturbing but yet hmm

2009-08-25T12:28:00.000+08:00

Just a thought...

What if I can just donate all my organs to people who find life more meaningful than me?
At least they deserve a second chance, unlike me, who doesn't give a shite eh?

What am I doing here?

2009-08-20T12:53:00.000+08:00

Feeling like my life is some kind of mess.
Everything stupid damm thing is bothering me.
Why is it I can't get my shite together?
I hate me right now.
I really do.

Keep asking myself what am I doing here?

On a sidenote, the unaffected side of me says 'slap me'

I lied.

2009-08-13T01:59:00.003+08:00

Job searching is terrible.
Anything but smooth.
But then again, I'm probably giving myself too much pressure.
As always.
Sighs.

Still in denial.

2009-08-12T02:01:00.002+08:00

Almost 3 weeks back...
My body seems to be in denial. The weather is horrible.
Boredom just sets in every now and then.
Animal Planet, Nat Geo, History and Discovery are my alt.
Job searching is going on smoothly.
I miss brisbane.

what?

2009-08-09T21:33:00.002+08:00

This is absurd.

I got scolded for drinking too much water. Because I have too much water fat.
Seriously.. I can't help it if I am thirsty right?

I am in denial.

2009-08-04T22:20:00.001+08:00

I am back at blogspot.
I am not really adapting well with my life back in Singapore.
I am angry/hurt with/by a few people.
I am struggling with keeping my faith.
Welcome back myself to Reality....

Shifted.

2007-05-20T22:37:00.000+08:00

Shifted people.

http://chattypepper.livejournal.com

=) Couldn't wait for the problem to be fixed.

Moving out of here.

2007-05-12T15:26:00.000+08:00

Blogger has been pissing me off.

For the last few days i can't seem to write any new entries because each time I click on ' New post', a freaking error message would be displayed. Like arghhh.

And today, at nelson's house, I could actually write a new post. I can't possibly go his house each time to update my blog. sighs.

There must be something wrong with my computer or my internet connection. And I bet it is my internet connection. Every time someone dials out, it disconnects. Sucks.

Am thinking of shifting to livejournal or Xanga. I don't know. If I can access it the next few days, I probably wouldn't move. But oh well, we'll see.

Anyways, had a lot of fun this week. =)

Feels like I've be gone.

2007-04-30T19:51:00.000+08:00

Been out almost everyday for the whole week.

Monday
Hanged out with the babes @ Coffee Club. Went to Yishun Dam. Eeling & Peter speeding. Cam whoring. Bitching. Smoking. Rubbish talk. Simply a wonderful night. Wouldn't mind doing it again before i leave. *smiles*

Bitch Bitch & Bitch

N-bitch & P-bitch.

Nicole & Me.

My Chio Bu & Me.

Tuesday

Woke up early to head down to Nelson's godmother place. Had some good Ba Ku Teh @ PSA Tanjong Pagar for breakfast. Caught Spiderman 3. Venom is awesome. Can't believe the Venom guy is Eric from that 70's show. He looks so different. *laughs*

Went to nice japanese restuarant at Taka for lunch. Forgot whats the name though. But the fried pork thing very nice. *yummies* Was suppose to go Sing K with the babes, but was really tired. Sorry about that. =/

Wednesday

Had tuition. Headed down to nelson's god mother's house to have dinner. Fried Spaggetti with bacon and cheese sausage. It tasted good. Wouldn't mind eating it again. =X

Thursday

Couldn't remember much. But I know I had dinner at nelson's god mother house again. Helped them by preparing the wan tan. So fun! haha. Next time i can make for you guys. =X

Friday

Had tuition again. Went to have dinner at the Raku NINJA at citylink for the 1st time with nelson's friends aka HanSheng, HanSheng's gf Jiaying and Yong Xiang. Had curry don, wasn't too bad. I mean you pay for what you eat I guess.

Today! Saturday

Had breakfast at cafe cartel with nelson's god sister. Free flow of bread. The bread is damm nice. =) Wah am feeling hungry again. =X And i realise they only have breakfast on weekends only.

What else?

1) yay! Liyin is back. Miss her quacky voice. =)

2) I baked chocolate cake with vanilla frosting the other day. I still have one more packet. When are u babes free to come taste it?

3) Look forward to dinner @ aston on Thurday with peter they all.

4) 200 pounds beauty on tuesday

5) Meet steph for lunch/dinner at sig?

Yeahs. *smiles*

p.s Am I ready for this?

YaYa bitch hood.

2007-04-28T03:19:00.000+08:00

320am

Just came back from Elite Park. I'm tired but yet my eyes are wide awake.

I hope alan is fine and all. And hope he finds his specs. Sighs.

Hanging out with the yaya bitch hood rocks.

Thanks guys for the Hoegarden beer. I know I suck at drinking. =X

Will update more tmr.

Am still thinking whether should i don't sleep so that I can meet nelson earlier. Or should I sleep and meet him later.

Ignore me.

325am

You are?

2007-04-23T20:36:00.000+08:00

Come my fellow babes and bitches!

Which one do you think you are?

Which one do you think your friends are?

*laughs*

Of course, I don't need to say which are mine. hahahahahaha.

Dearie, I think yours are A. Almost boobs. =X

p.s I got these pictures off Belinda's blog. Shhhhhh.

Right, am so going to get this wallet!!!! It's soooo NICE!!!!!

Jumbled

2007-04-22T13:11:00.000+08:00

Woke up at 10 am this morning for tuition. Just came back.

Didn't really sleep well.
Firstly was my sister. She call me at 3 smth am saying she forgot to bring her keys. So I went down and open the door for her.

And then I went back to sleep soundly again.
Next, before I know it. Another phonecall at 4 smth am. It was Quek asking me for mount pleasant hospital no. Because the kittens were dying. Anyways how are the kittens arh?
Did I like talked nonsense or smth? I was really damm tired. In my mind, I was like " you guys are still out?"

Sorry I couldn't come though I really wanted too. Guess what? After I left the beach, I couldn't find my dad & my dad couldn't find me. And we were like shouting over the phone like where are you this n that. I was running to and fro finding him. I was so fustrated I cried nonstop. Sighs.

Yeahs I really tired. And I'm still heading out to Vivocity later with Nelson.

Anyways, already told my student's gurdian I would be quitting. Somehow I feel sad about the whole thing. I know the boy wants me to go badly. haha. Maybe I really am a bad teacher after all. I should just be happy that, thanks to them I have some experience in teaching. Right?
Okay I'm just feeling down. I don't know why.

Am probably too attached to my students. Shites.

Rubbish talk.

Time to make the decision.

Feelings I can't describe.

2007-04-19T21:01:00.000+08:00

1.......
I just receieved news that my Man is leaving me on June 14th.
I hope he will be able to send me off to Australia. Oh my god, I'm so going to miss him so badly!

2.......
My mother is very sick. I don't know why she hasn't recovered. She has been in bed for 4 days now. I really hope she recover soon. She has never been this sick before. Sighs.

It's all happening so fast.

YUM CHA & K

2007-04-19T01:29:00.000+08:00

Went to eat YUM CHA!

The food is delicious. And CHEAP! $15 nett man. (Can print the coupon online!)
Promotion is till the end of the month!!!!
Don't worry Lao kong Jane, we can go again!!!!!!!=)

Wahs. I ate until I was really damm full. We had big tummies. hehe.

Went to sing Karaoke. I trying my best to learn how to 'dian ke'. My singing pass a not? I'm not tone deaf right?????
Singing K is really kind of fun. =) I think i need to learn more chinese songs. Some songs are really nice but then I don't know how to sing or even understand la.

Am so broke now. Sighs. Need more ka ching. =)

p.s It might not be easy for me, but I'll still try my best. Because I love you.

Alls good. =)

2007-04-17T22:48:00.000+08:00

Everything's okay now.

Sarah still loves her dearest Nelsonala zheng.

Sarah apologises to nelsonala zheng for everything. Because she was in the wrong and she really being a very mean bitch to him

' I'm sorry my dearie.'

I will try my best to change to make myself a better person for you. =)

I love you. =)

Thank you to my dearest nicole lim chio bu for listening to my rantings and rubbish about me being a bitch. I know it was boring. haha. But thank you very much for everything. =) You made me feel much better. *muacks*

Thank you dearest lao kong jane for listening to me too and showing your concern. Thank you very much. I too am glad we shared our stuff together. Hee. *muacks*

p.s looking forward to BABES OUTINGS. =)

Just ask the question, Come untie the knot. Say you won't care. Say you won't care.

2007-04-17T00:26:00.000+08:00

It is probably my fault.

'Where do I stand?' You asked.
I just stood there & stared at you unable to answer.

I don't know the answer.
You might think I don't care for you or appreciate the things you do for me. But deep down i do.
I know I'm selfish. Yes I'm unreasonable. Yes I'm everything bad you say I am.
You think that I wouldn't miss you if I went to Australia. But you don't know how hard I'm holding back my fears.

You think I'm always comparing you with heonghan. But you know that's not true.

I know how you cannot seem to understand that how can I proritize my friends together with the same level as you. You're the boyfriend. The boyfriend should be more important.

Maybe today's quarrel was uncalled for. Maybe we were both feeling tired. I don't know.

I'm sorry for getting angry with you for being sick.
I'm sorry for being mad at you for not staying over at my house.
I'm sorry for saying that it was no point going down to eat at your godmother's house when I'd rather go to the beach with my friends.
I'm sorry for being so unreasonable.
I'm sorry for being selfish.
I'm sorry for putting you in a difficult spot between me & your parents.
I'm sorry for forcing you to put your parents out of the picture.
I'm sorry for not spending time with you last week.
I'm sorry for not appreciating the little things you do for me.
I'm sorry for getting upset with you over the slightest things.
I'm sorry for always making you stay at my house.
I'm sorry for not being more caring to you when you are sick.
I'm sorry for being like this, when you are sick.
I'm sorry for everything.

Somehow I feel, I'm just not right for you. Maybe you deserve someone better. Someone who really know how to be the right girlfriend.

I'm just not it.

Karaoke

2007-04-14T21:40:00.000+08:00

Went to eat the Manhanttan Fish Market with the babes for lunch. Yeah read "the babes".
Me, Queky, Pearlyn, Nicole & Alana. *smiles*

Note: We were suppose to eat YUM CHA. But then the promotion is only valid on weekdays till 6pm. Shites!

Shared a seafood platter for 2 with my dear pearlyn. It wasn't too bad. Prefered the rice at fish & co though. Sweet & Yummy. =)

Anyways after lunch, we went to sing some KARAOKE! =) It was my first time singing with my babes. Was kind of shy at first, but was soon out of my shell. Singing is actually quite fun. haha.
I promise you guys, I will sing more okies? You all better call me along. =)

Took pictures. Alan said the rooms were like those for 'MAKING LOVE'. haha.

The babelicious babes.

The siao ting tong trio.

Me & Queky. =)

My crazy bitches. Love em.

Ya. Pearlyn was learning how to blow bubbles out of her mouth. Guess what? After many failed attempts, the bubble landed on my skin. And... her bubble had a lot of SALIVA man!!!!! Like oh my god. How disgusting. Seriously. *laughs

Hmm. Would have been more fun if more people came. =) My lao kong Jane what happen to you. Hope you are okay and all. Sighs.

My nelsonala zheng is coughing and having slight fever so is my mother. Sighs. I am like so worried. It must be the fucked up weather that is screwing up our system! Shites. And recently there are tons of mosquitoes la. Irritating the shit out of me.

And screw my period. Hate the freaking stomach cramps. They're killing me. Arghhhh!

p.s I feel like shopping. I need money. $$$$$$$$$

Always be there for them.

2007-04-12T22:49:00.000+08:00

It's funny how we tend to never notice something so big, so important or so serious happening to those we love. Those whom we see, talk, hug & kiss absolutely everyday.

We always ask ourselves, how come we couldn't or didn't see it coming or happening right before our very eyes.

Do we choose to see what we want to see?

Always treasure those we love. You don't know when they might just leave you for a better place.

This is to Lucky.

Goodbye my dear grey furry friend.

It gets better.

2007-04-11T22:38:00.000+08:00

Went over to Quek's place with Nicole & Nehji yesterday. Was suppose to swim, but in the end I changed my mind due to a tummyache in the morning AND I was too ashamed of my uber fat body. Yes. Sighs....

Tika's having cataract on her eyes. I felt rather sad & scared at the same time for I fear my Zippy would develop the same problem as he is already 7 years old. I don't want my dog or anybody's dog to go blind. Which brings down to why I don't want to go overseas, because I want to be there for him when he needs me. You get what I mean?

Right, tried to helped Quek by putting up a post on the doggie forum. Quek made a few phone calls to various animal clinics as well. All seem to recommend either Animal Recovery or Mount Pleasant.Will probably accompany Quek down on Monday for the Animal Recovery check up. I hope all goes well. =) Tika's really a cute dog. Especially when she's angry. =X

Tika. Quek's beloved baby. =) So pretty & Adorable.

I always thought WAWA, nelson'a dog looks like Tika. Maybe seen in real life would have a better resemblance. I know WAWA's not that pretty. =)

Headed to Pearlyn's house to have her mum's home cooked Mee Hoon Kui. Delicious. =) The soup was good. Hurhur. Ohhsss, her nephew is super adorable. It makes me want to produce babies. =X *laughs* And Ger Ger, I love it when she snorts & grunts or make funny noises. hahaha. =)

This Saturday is YUM CHA babes! Yummilicious food. It's good to be meeting up with my babes regularly. I feel much closer to them now, definitely more than before. =) Don't know about you babes?

Apart from this, Mum's having a lump in her throat. It isn't thyroids, so I'm really praying it's not serious, but I'm also preparing for the worst. She's been really worried about the lump, it explains why she's in a foul mood these days. Hopefully it's nothing.Really. Because I don't know what to do if ..........

I guess everyone is having their own problems.

Ohs. And I'm thinking of stopping tuition. Because apparently the boy isn't too happy with me for my messy time schedules. And he actually mentioned to his sister whether they should switch me to a new tutor. I don't blame them. But yeahs. Am still thinking about it, besides if they were to fire me, then I can start looking for a 9-5 job. =) Anyone wants to take over them? They're not difficult students, really?

Thats all for now. Night.

My inner thoughts:
It comes and goes as it please. Why are relationships hard to maintain & to understand.

The salesman

2007-04-08T11:35:00.000+08:00

Went shopping with Ms Quek & Ms Chio Bu to VivoCity. They wanted to get tank tops at Pull & Bear.

I hate the fucking sales man in charge of changing rooms. Liyin & Nicole went to try their tanks. They were nice tankies. ( Should have gotten 1 for myself). Anyways I suggested to Liyin to try Black. So she asked me to take Black & Yellow small while she waited inside the changing room.

I wanted to pass them the clothes, this fucking salesman was , 'excuse me, you need to queue.'

Then I'm like, ' Erm, I'm passing it to my friend.'

Then he replied in his most fucked up attitude, ' you're not suppose to do that.' ' you need to queue.'

I'm like what the fuck! Fucked up customer service man.

Firstly, the sales man could have said it in a nicer way. Stupid fucktard.
Secondly,there was no freaking sign which says you can't do that. And come on, when you try your clothes, you can request the salesman or your friend to bring you a size smaller or something right?
Thirdly, there was this sign that states ' Maximum 6 pieces'. So tell me what's the fucking difference.

Irritated the shite out of me. Arghhhhhh. I was just really pissed at the fact he said it in a very rude way. Plus I was very very tired. Stupid Pull & Bear sales man!

Anyways, enough of the stupid fuckedup salesman.

Headed down to meet the rest of the babes at cheesecake cafe.

I had my strawberry oreo cheesecake. Hurhur. *smiles*

Gossiping & bitching was fun. Can't wait for it again. =)

I suddenly have the crave to eat a lot a lot of things. Shiteeeeeee. Okay that was random. =)

This is what happens when you eat the WRONG food.

2007-04-05T18:46:00.000+08:00

Right. Been lao sai-ing since last night and this morning. And right now my tummy is still feeling queasy and all. Arghh.

It must be the SASHIMI i had @ sakae sushi last night. Arghh. Wasn't fresh. -_-'''

Told liyin about it, and she said it was probably the grilled chicken we had in the afternoon at wisma food republic. But that was lunch time.... lol . Is it possible?

Damm. my asshole was damm pain la. Told lao kong jane, and she laughed her head off. Like seriously.

Anyways, my dearest nelsonala was kind enough to cook me some chicken porridge today for lunch. Hurhur. Thank you my dearie. *muacks*

Dearie arh, the porridge wasn't too bad, but I still like your dad's sweet potato one. Hurhur. Please go learn can? So you can cook it anytime I want to eat. *laughs*

Damm. Am so not going to eat any raw food again anytime soon.

Sighs. Think tmr I can't eat cheesecake. I will just lao sai again la if I ate the cheesecake.
I want the strawberry oreo cheesecake or maybe the cherry cheesecake. =X

Right looking forward to..
1) Swimming at queky's house
2) Eating YUM CHA!

The SLS trip.

2007-04-03T00:44:00.000+08:00

Today I accompanied my dearest Nelsonala Zheng to his favourite place.

Wanna guess? Given the clue SLS. =)

Customer service was rather bad at the Video pro shop. Got conned by the stupid man that iCute power supply was good. According to the MCP shop ( I know MCP. hahaha), give it 3 months it's byebye. And the stupid man could still say it's good. -_-''''

Well, he bought his new CPU. Casing. Motherboard. Ram. And most important of the IMPORTANTOUS! His graphic card. Yes he cant live without it. =)

Though he overshot his budget, I could tell he was really happy with his purchase. =) hahaha.

Yes. Though I know he wanted to try out his new computer, he was being his sweet self, he offered to stay over at my place to keep me company. hahaha. Love him. Love him. =)

Ohs. At bugis, he told me there was this game called Outrun2. It's a racing game. Now they had these seats which can move to improve the gameplay.

He was like, ' Honey, come I'll take you for a ride.' And we were on this.

He was like, ' You like yellow car right? Let's sit on the yellow one.'

hahaha. Yeahs it was like sitiing on this car which moves according to the game. LOL.

Heading to IDP tmr, pass em my latest results. Sighs it's like at Orange grove. Freaking far.

p.s Looking forward to the wednesday Sakae Dinner with lydia & yuan. =)

My 20 year old babe.

2007-04-02T01:00:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday to My Dearest Nicole Lim Chio Bu. =)

The '4 seasons' birthday cake.......I mean '4 leaves'. *laughs*

The birthday chio bu babe with her cake. =)

That was the first time I ever stayed over at Nicole's place. It was ladies night. =) We stayed up all night just talking & bitching about everything we could think about. You know us girls.

It was really one of the best nights I ever had. Though tired and all, I really enjoyed myself.
I love it. Wouldn't mind doing it again? hurhur.

Memories I would definitely love to keep. =)

As what my Jane lao kong has said, this would probably be the last time where we all babes would gather together and have fun because we're all going separate ways to pursue what we want. I knew what she said was possible or maybe true, it made me sad and all. Sighs.

But I'm still glad we're all still together. Laughing and all. I hope we would all be still together after our Unis. =) *cross fingers*

I love my babes. =)

p.s Happy birthday my dearest Nicole Lim. *muacks*

p.s.s Babes. Let's do this often whenever we have a chance too ya? =)

I've been looking at you Sideways.

2007-04-01T14:11:00.000+08:00

"Sideways" by Let's go Sailing

The sky looks pretty
Normal and so do the trees
I woke up pretty
Early and I could see
That I’ve been walking
I’ve been thinking
I’ve been looking at you
Sideways.

I’ve been moving
I’ve been dreaming
I’ve been looking at you
Sideways.

I have no problems
Dipping in my feet
But the trouble comes when
I have to jump.
And all the reasons not to
Seem pretty good
At the time
Cause I’ve been walking
I’ve been thinking
I’ve been looking at you
Sideways.

Yeah I’ve been moving
I’ve been dreaming
I’ve been looking at you
Sideways.

Playing with Numbers

2007-03-28T23:40:00.000+08:00

Guess what. My dad went to buy 4D.

He bought the numbers. 5250. 2550. 2552. Don't the numbers ring a bell?

The funny thing is the strike for the most stupidest combination! The 2552.

And my dad could tell me, ' While writing the cheque, I was wondering where got cheque $25.52. Where got 52 cents one! '

He said it in a way which he knew it was stupid, but yet he admired it because, he striked that particular number. Like Oh my god la.

-_-''''''''''' Super dots.

Guess he was really tired!

Hmm. Talked to mum about personal stuff. I know what she said had some truth in it.
I'm having mixed feelings about it. And I felt hurt and sad. Should I just face reality or follow what my heart tells me?

p.s when you thought things were settled, more problems just keep coming.

'Oh my god' moment

2007-03-25T23:00:00.000+08:00

The most WHAT THE HELL thing happened.

I asked my dad to write for me 2 cheques for the application fees.
Both each $ 52.50.

My dad told me he will write it later, and will pass it to me.

The time was about 11pm when he passed it to me. I checked the cheques and yes he wrote the amount wrongly.
He wrote $25.50 for each cheque.

I told him it was wrong. He got real pissed and went back to his room and closed the door harder than usual. And I clearly stated like a million times it was $52.50.

So I waited. 10 minutes later. I heard his door opened, so I went out to take it from him. I look at it again to check......the most 'oh my god' thing happened!

He actually wrote another 2 cheques with the amount $25.52.
I stared at it and I'm shites! I didn't dare tell him it was wrong. Because the first time he was really mad. Sighs. He was probably tired I guess.

But seriously Oh My God! Now I have to pray that SIM accepts NETS. I have to pay my own application fee first which is $52.50!

I swear I told my dad a million & 1 time it was $52.50.

I'm totally speechless. Really. Speechless.

When will it end?

2007-03-23T19:53:00.000+08:00

Right my examination transcipts just arrived today.

Am probably going to apply for the local institutes like MIS( Marketing Institute of Singapore) & SIM ( Singapore Institute of Management). You know just in case, it's a nono for Overseas.

Yuppers. Am going for Bachelor of Commerce(Curtin) majoring in Finance & Marketing for MIS.
For SIM, am still not very sure what I want to take. I'm looking @ either Banking & Finance or Marketing or Economics & Finance. Sighs I really don't know.

Told my parents about my plans. It seems like whenever I bring up the topic of Universities or Applications, their faces just change. Like somehow they feel so stressed about it. They don't say it but really I can tell. And everything is like " oh, up to you." sighs....

I know I know. I'm half hearted. But come on, I'm not someone who can give u a direct yes and pack my bags and off I go to Aussie. There are factors to consider. It's a big thing and it's not easy. See! Librians hate making choices. The thing is I keep weighing the pros n cons and I can't stop it! Argh...

Apart from that, mum actually made something like an offer. She was like " If you study local, mummy will sponsor you driving. Because there's enough money to pay for your driving."
There was this excitement in me, but then again.... since when have my parents really kept their word on something like this. Like seriously?

Like oh if you do this, we will reward you. Right?

Man. When will this torment of the University Applications end! For godsake!!!!

Please any University that I have applied for.....Accept my offer already!!! Argh!

Reminder: please take passport size photos by next week ( latest monday)
please follow tuition schedule! Where's my discipline!!!!!!

ZZZZZZzzzzzZZzzzz

2007-03-18T15:47:00.000+08:00

Looks like am probably going to Australia.
Chances are like 50-50.
Applied for UWA, Curtin, Murdoch, UQ & Monash I think. Not sure if I'll be able to get it. Hopefully I will be accepted by the schools, if not it's off to the local schools.

Was thinking, If i really do. I'm so going to get this mega big Schnauzer dog toy. And maybe ( if I know how) I will cut the toy up and stuff some warm bag thingie which can produce heat and sew it up. So that when I hug it to sleep, it will feel real. Real as in producing warmth! hahaha. I know I sound retarded. *laughs*

Am bored to the max. I have the itch to play some World of Warcraft. My blood elf Hunter!!! But nelson's friend is probably raiding. Sighs.
My stupid brother don't want to buy the freaking BC. Man should I just get the topup card and just play my RICH pally & my warrior. *tempting*
Shites. So many things I want to buy but sooooo little money.

I need work!

Anyways a picture for laughs. My lil brother at Secondary 2. haha. So chubby & cute. =)
Now he's all skinny & tall. And he's always bullying me. Argh.

To a better place.

2007-03-15T12:09:00.000+08:00

Goodbye my little black pink balls hammie.

Mr Black Pinkie Balls
14th February 2005 - 15th March 2007

Miss you. *smiles*

My Stagnant GPA. -_-'''

2007-03-14T18:58:00.000+08:00

Results are out.
Nothing fantastic. Nothing good enough to give me that raise in my GPA. It's stagnant.
But I guess it's over. What's done is done.

I don't deny I am sad about it. No point brooding but look forward to the next phase.
Plus, it helps me avoid conversations with the words, "I told you.", " Tell you how many times already, you don't want to listen."
Yes these common words! Hate em.

Now I need to think positive and look at what are the available options I have regarding my University Applications.

Time to plan for my future.

To the people who did well: Yippess for you guys. =)
To the people who didn't: Cry it out. Forget about it. Think positive. It's not the end of everything, hang in there guys. =)

p.s Yay! Dearie you did it. =) *muacks*

Eliminate Negativity

2007-03-12T21:46:00.000+08:00

It's time to wash away all the Negativity (-) in me.

It has been making my life miserable. Really.
I keep thinking of bad scenarios & having doubts on friendships lately.
I seriously don't know whats wrong with me.

But you know what? I've had enough.

It's time to think Positive. (+)
It's time to be understanding and not get upset over small issues.
It's time to be a better person inside & out.
It's time to not think so much about stupid minute things.

So enough of all this negativity already....

I need to ask YOU out soon. Haven't been that understanding girlfriend of yours to gossip about the new man in your life. *grins*

I should stop being paranoid when people do not reply my smses. It is kind of irritating. It makes you think why won't this person reply you! Argh. Like if they are angry or annoyed with you or something.
Anyways it is time to stop all these nonsense. I need to think that they are just too busy to reply me. Everyone has been really busy lately right? I should not be so affected. *smiles*

Of course, I am going to be happy whatever the outcome is. Whether I make it into UWA or Curtin or Murdoch, lets just see which path god would like me to take. Doing local is fine as well.
It's time to be happy with what I have. And not sulk.

Eliminate the negativity in me!

Yay!

Further studies shite.

2007-03-10T00:53:00.000+08:00

Went to Hui & Kuah to talk to the Curtin University people.

Hmm. All's good I guess. Made my application. It was free, so I thought I just try and see how many exemptions I can get. The more the better. =)

The most stupidest thing was, after filling in the application, both me & Jane actually forgot to SIGN! How retarded can we be. Like seriously! Hmm will most probably fill in the application or rather sign the thing next week on the 16th of March. *laughs*

Anyways, Mum has agreed to go with me to next week's Australia education fair @ Suntec City. 18th & 19th Mar. Will probably go to IDP, and apply for UWA.

Though I'm keeping my options open to the other Universities. I really hope I can get into UWA. *crosses fingers*

If all goes well.. it's byebye singapore & hello australia.

Sighs. I wonder if I'm ready for all of this. Mar to July. It's only like 3 months away. And 3 months is such a short time.

Can't bear to leave my baby Zipper behind. Am just very afraid I can't be there when he needs me.

Omg. Should I just do my degree here? Am saves everyone's time & money???????
Shites.

I'm getting cold feet!

Next week. Murdoch!

300.

2007-03-09T11:13:00.000+08:00

Caught 300. I must say technology can really make you have those abs. And it can make your body look flawless. It's amazing what technology can do nowadays. Really...

According to Nelson. Some of them do have a nice bodies in real life. With those abs and all. Yes. I was staring at there digitally enhanced bodies because they all look so sexy & hot in their Spartan Warrior outfit. You know I don't lie about hot bods. =X

I love it when they march forward to carry on the kill. It's like every detail is being shown. Their expression, their body & muscle movement. haha. =X

Graphic effects were awesome. Fighting too. Reminds me of Troy! Of course there's love & all. Thumbs up to the Digital graphic people.

Anyways I'm running late. Suppose to meet Jane & liyin at paya lebar to go for Hui &Kuah interview. =)

p.s I've seen this whole thing before. And I don't like what I'm seeing. And you are oblivious to it. Should I stay numb? Or should I just pretend to be myself, and be there when u need me?

Emo-Period

2007-03-06T17:40:00.000+08:00

Ditched the YoungMinds thing @ School. Was feeling rather down. Thought i stayed home to emo.

Yes I know i missed out on the taking photo whoring session. It's like the last day of polytechnic school. There still be graduation in April right.

I guess everyone is having a rough period right now. It's really contagious.
My mum. Between me & my brother. My dearest friend. The world.

The depression just sinks into you. Filling your mind. Filling your heart.

Now it's dark, about to rain and I'm alone listening to James Blunt's High over and over again while blogging this entry. Such a right mood to just be depressed. Sighs.

Bought an emo interesting book too." A place called here" by Cecelia Ahern.

Emo. Emo. Emo.

You know who you are.

2007-03-05T22:31:00.000+08:00

My dear friend.

Sorry I wasn't that much of help to you. I hope you are feeling alright & all.

Don't worry. Things usually fall into place once the mind is clear.

I believe you'll pull through. And so will everyone else ya. =)

*muacks*

Love Sarah.

p.s Not sure if you're going to read it, so yeah.

Expectations.

2007-03-03T01:22:00.000+08:00

We all have expectations.

I have never seem to have met yours. Never.

Angry. Useless. Lost. Depressed.

Negativity.

i'm so sick and tired of everything.

Random

2007-03-01T23:47:00.000+08:00

Testing 1 2 3. I can't seem read my new post on my own internet! Shites

Absolutely Dorothy Perkins.

2007-02-27T17:26:00.000+08:00

This is short random post.

Went to shop abit @ the usual corner of Parkway Parade with my siblings instead of studying my ERM paper.

Am extremely happy with what I bought. *smiles*

A black skirt & tee from Dorothy Perkins. =)

The black skirt. It looks nicer real life.

The girlfriend from hell Tee! Love it.

Honestly, both items look real nice when you actually see it. hahahaha. =) Oh My god. Love em!
Can't wait for more...More..More...& More Shooppppiiinnnnggggg!!!!!!!

Did i mention, I'm totally addicted to World of Warcarft all over again!

All the best to those who are taking ERM papers. =)

Gong Xi Fa Cai, Hong Bao Na Lai

2007-02-23T22:32:00.000+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year 2007!~!

Chinese New Year is all about:
1. Family
2. Angbaos
3. Pineapple Tarts
4. Ba Kwa
5. Black Jack
6. Mahjong
7. Granny's once a year MUTTON curry
8. Lao Yu Sheng
9. Friends
10. Laughter
11. Midnight movies
12. Kiam Cai Arc! *delicious*
13. New bedsheets
14. New plants for the house
15. It's about wearing RED

Cam whored with my siblings & cousin. =)

'Me'.... 'Re'..... 'Do' .....

I love this picture. Look @ our eyes. Sibling eyes.

My beloved sister. Pretty & Sexy....& Rich. =X

Yes. The skinny people. My brother & sister. =)

Geralda & Sarah. My cousin & Me.

........Last
..................But
...........................Not
.....................................Least

My retarded brother posing as a model for the camera.
I know you girls will LOVE it. haha.

p.s I changed blog add due to the fact my mum found out about my blog address. My bad. Sorry guys. =)

Love is simply the best thing.

2007-02-15T00:49:00.000+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO ALL OF YOU!!!!

This is a entry full of Love Love Love & more Love.

Alright it's basically pictures of my valentine's day. Wheee. Together with my dear Nelsonala Zheng! hoho. Feeling sooo loved. ^_^

I Heart U!
Heart Chocolates. hehe. Bought it @ Candy Empire. Surprisely they taste nice. heehee.

Heart Chocolate Eyes. hahahaha.

My Day @ the Singapore Zoo. Year of the Pig.

*muacks* Nelson showing off how lucky he is to have me as his girlfriend. Like Duh!

Wahahahahhaha!

Nelson Loves Sarah. Sarah Loves Nelson.

My Valentine.

Dinner @ SAMBA restaurant. Yummilicious Beef!

Sighs. Am so tired. Haven't done anything. Nelson already concussed onto the bed. haha.

Shite. I left 1 and a half day to study Business Intelligence. Damm!

Anyways, A Happy Valentine's Day! *muacks* people.

p.s Thank you my dearie. I love every part of it & thank you for everything that you have done for you. I love you sooooo much! Love u Love u Love u!!!!! I love you Nelson Zheng!

Shhhhooooppppiiiinnniiiinnnggggg!

2007-02-13T09:58:00.000+08:00

Went shopping yesterday with my lil bro and Lydia. Didn't buy what I thought I needed to buy. Instead I bought myself accesories. hahaha.

A Flower ring & Flower necklace for chinese new year. And I bought the necessary things for valentine's day. haha.

Come to think of it, I' m so excited about valentine's day! hahahahaha. *grins*

Alright, me & Lydia did cam-whored a bit while waiting for my lil bro to come out of the topshop changing room. hahahaha.

My lil bro, Clarence.

His virgin use of the posb NETS!

Lydia's dream guy. Aka Good Boy.

My dream guy. *smiles*

Lydia & Me.

*gasp*

Yay! Babes forever. =)

I just want to shop even more. Damm I need money!

p.s Fried Mars Balls are Orgasmic!!!!!!!! Love it!

Crying my heart out till I bleed.

2007-02-10T21:57:00.000+08:00

I hate being the middle child.

I hate being the one who is given the least guidance when I need it.

I hate being not able to make you proud in anything. I have never accomplish anything would have made you as parents proud. I'm just not as smart as the your other 2 kids probably.

I hate being the one who gives a shite about everything.

Why can't I be selfish and say " I want to go overseas for 2 years".

Why must you say, " you can help mummy save a lot of money if you do 1 year local."

Why didn't you say it to denise or maybe clarence? Why me????

Because I'm the middle the child?
Because you know I care about these things?
Because you don't think I can do it?
Because what?

What if i did agree to study here for 1 year and do my final year overseas. What if something were to happen, and you decided that I should do my final year locally as well.
What if?
Can you gurantee that chance for me to go overseas?
And you know very well that if this were to happen, I cannot blame you because shite happens. I know.
Yeahs it's all about what ifs... maybe it's too early to even think about it right?

I just wish I was selfish enough to stand up and say " I want to go overseas".

But because you keep stressing that by doing 1 year local, I would save you money. You keep stressing day in day out that I could save you lots of money whenever the topic is of the " Universities".

I am really torn apart on what to do.

Maybe it was best that I wasn't born or somthing. Then maybe you guys got enough money for clarence to have a 100% chance of going overseas. Denise already went and we are all so happy for her that she graduated.

I didn't have to go through this fucked up shite of being the freaking middle child.

I know whatever is say may not be even true, but thats how I feel at the very moment. I don't know why the hell I'm feeling this way.

Is it jealousy?
Is it because it is unfair to me?
I seriously don't know.

Am I being too selfish by even voicing this out? Or am I just being a cry baby for not getting what I'm suppose to have.

Fuck. So much for tears & tissues.

My Rantings

2007-02-09T22:32:00.000+08:00

Firstly before I start ranting about shopping and nonsense stuff about myself..............

I would like to congratulate my lil bro of mine for doing well enough for both me and my parents to be so proud of him. hahaha. I actually told him he'll do better than me. And yeah he did.

L1R4=14
L1R5=18

Ya! He got a freaking A2 for English man. Like oh my god!!!!!! Sighs. Am really so proud of him. Yeahs and he actually said to me, " haha. I beat you!." What an ass... But I am really really really happy for him!!!!!!!

Anyways went shopping @ Vivocity on Wednesday. Didn't manage to buy a lot of stuff, was looking fatter than usual. hahaha.

Things I bought:
Zara Black tights 16.90
Basic Red tee @ Forever 21 13.00
Heart earings @ Forever 21 9.00
Heart chocolates @ Candy empire 3.80

Yeah thats about it. Going shopping on Monday again to shop for my shoes & top for 1st day of chinese new year.

Yeahs Nelson wanted to buy this pair of adidas shoes. Didn't know we could use the 15% discount vouchers @ franchise stores only.
And the bad news was the franchise stores did not offer the model anymore. So we did not believe the salesman @ Vivocity, instead we went to citylink, And the sales man was right. There wasn't any more of this models available in the shop. Like arghhhhhhhh!
Decided to walk all the way to Suntec, and feeling all positive about it, they didn't offer it as well.
Super sadded. Probably getting it on Monday!

Took a picture @ the mrt station. Yeah this would be the last photo of nelson having his messy unkept hair. haha. He went for a haircut today and looks soooo Cute!!!! Short & Sweet. haha. He having difficulties accepting it though. *laughs*

Here are pictures of my baby boys. hehe. Enjoy!!!!

haha. Can you spot lil Snowy?

Poor Zippy with the funnel. =)

p.s I need more $$$$$$$$$$$$$!

I regret!

2007-02-06T22:50:00.000+08:00

I regret I regret I regret I regret I regret!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What the fuck is wrong with me??????????

I shouldn't have told u. I shouldn't have told u!!!!!!!!!

REGRET!

My baby is sick.

2007-02-06T12:07:00.000+08:00

My dear baby boy Zipper is having some infection on his balls. Sighs

It's all sore and red. Went to the vet yesterday. Waited for like 3 hours before our turn.

The doc said he needs the funnel thing which would prevent him from licking. And that we need not rub the infected area with a lot of cream, because usually that area is really really painful. Hard to even put the meds.

He looks so sad with the funnel thing around his neck. Poor thing. I feel sad when I see him like that. Sighs

Hope he gets better by next week at least.

p.s shite i haven't started on POT! Fucks.

I hate Business Intelligence.

2007-02-05T15:33:00.000+08:00

Yes Business Intelligence PHASE 2 is done. ( Dear lydia, I'm sure u know why "phase" is in bold!)
Wasn't too happy about the whole BI thing.
Let's just say it sucks to have fucked up group mates. =)

It's down to the critic report and end semester test. Shites.

Haven't done the POT articles which is due this friday. hahaha.

My apologies to pearlyn, couldn't make it to the baby kyan's "man yue"! Damm. So wanted to see him!!! probably next time bahs.

Anyways, looking forward to this wednesday!!!! Shopping @ VivoCity! Wheee.

Check this out. My baby boys Zipper & Snowy. ( If you're bored!)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MFq489Er1FY

Goodbye to you, Goodbye to the FYP.

2007-02-01T23:15:00.000+08:00

Goodbye FYP!

Took some pictures to embrace the feeling of completing the whole darn project.
( Haha, actually we took these pictures an hour before our presentation!)

The collage of MP08! As you can see we were very bored.

The babes of MP08. haha. Sarah & Lydia. *smiles*

Being our Sweetest of the Sweetest. Hehe.Awwwww

Being Seductive Office Ladies. hahahahaha. Let's do it again!

The Office Couple. haha. Sarah & Nelson. Wheee.

Last but not least...........

I give you, the SLANGER. tsk tsk!

Proudly brought to you by Sarah. Pictures taken by Lydia.

The best of MPo8. hahahaha. *muacks*

Mommy! It's Over.......

2007-01-31T21:17:00.000+08:00

Yay! Final Year Project is finally over.

Documentation & Presentation both done. Whooppeee! A sigh of relief. I was hoping for this day to be over. At last, it has come and it's going to pass by in the next 3 hours or so. hahahaha.

What's left is just Business Intelligence phase 2 and POT articles. Shites. To think that I could rest and stop thinking about projects!!!!!!!

As you know, I haven't done any Chinese New Shopping. Practically had no time, so am planning to go VIVOCity next wednesday. Yes! Like finally after months of struggling with the Major Project documentation. I seriously had no time!

Am thinking of getting red shoes and a red top. I'm recycling the bottom as we speak. Too bad I didn't work this month, if not I had extra cash to spend on more stuff. Sighs.

Ohs! And I almost forget, Pearlyn's newphew is having this "Man Yue" celebration. Yay! At last, I can see her cute little newphew. Baby boy Kyan. hahaha. I remembered the name. hahahaha.
Yay! A time to see my babes too. hoho. *smiles* Hope to get some bitching done when I meet them. keke.

Tmr is POT game. Boring shite.

Is it wrong to feel sad? When you thought as a girlfriend...you should be the first to know important news about your boyfriend. But your boyfriend told someone else first, because he forgot about you. Sighs.

I wish for this to be over, so we get back our lives.

2007-01-26T00:25:00.000+08:00

Enough is enough. I asked you why and all you can give me is a " dunno". Like how irritating is that!

I don't see why you must give not only me but everyone( ur grp mates only) that attitude.

You as the Leader of our group, you give it to me (or the rest) 1 day is fine. Yes. I respect that you have been stressed lately and I know you are doing hell lots of php codings. You have been under a lot of pressure.I don't blame you at all.

But again & again, that same attitude. It's not as if I'm slacking or not doing my operational manual.

I'm sorry I don't know php coding very well. I'm useless when it comes to the coding area. I admit that.

At this moment, none of us need your pissed/stressed/irritated kind of attitude. We are working and trying our best to get things done. ( At least I think we are....)

p.s Am just irritated. ignore me. Sighs. Why must these things happen......

Cold Feet.

2007-01-23T10:02:00.000+08:00

A week from now is my Major Project presentation. Like Oh My God. Yes as much as I would like get it over & done with, I'm not sure if I have completed the freaking operational manual. Sighs. Help!

There's UAT. There's the ERD. Ahhhhhhhhhh! I just can't believe it, after this everything will be over. Exam over and thats it. done. Out of poly. Shites.

Everyone's been pretty stressed out. Even Yuan Sheng is now snaping at me sometimes for no apparent reason. But i guess you can't blame the guy, he's doing most of the technical parts of this project. *smiles*

Now's about 1005am. Woke up 930am. Had this weird dream. I dreamt that it was the chinese new year eve and my family were having a reunion dinner at my gramps. Well i wasn't sure why nelson wasn't there, but some guy was there with me instead. ( Like WTF? Am not saying who.=X)
I was shocked to see my grandmother smiling, like i couldn't believe she was alive. But it felt real and it was good to see her face in the dream. Sighs. Miss her so much.

Anyways, I couldn't watch SAW III. Too gory & disgusting. Both Nelson & my brother were watching on the computer next to me. I had to put on ear plugs to listen to music. I just didn't like the screams of a person in pain. It's just too horrifying for me. haha. I did take some peeks at those gory parts. It's curiousity!

Anyways wants the SAW III dics? It's only for computer. =X
Come to think of it. Where is my BORAT disc?

The new car.

2007-01-20T18:16:00.000+08:00

Yes. My parents have just bought a new car like this morning. I so didn't see it coming.

And yuppers, it is the new Toyota Camry. ( haha. my dear lydia, you must be damm excited to come see it when it arrives! Come have a virgin ride when it's ready!)

Am quite excited about it. It'll be ready before chinese new year. Yay! New year New car. =X Sounds familiar. hahaha. And they are getting a Black Camry I think. Like so cool. Oh my god.

Here's the picture in black. Looks damm sexy right? Awwww. hahaha.

Sexy man. Sexy Black. ( Wait, at least i think they got a the Black colour. hahaha.)

Man. I so want a Yellow VW Beetle. Haha. Yes YELLOW!

Oh so cute. I so want to have it man. *smiles*

Sighs. So much for dreaming. The Camry's good for now. *laughs*

YAY! MY DEAREST NELSON PASSED HIS BIKE TP!

2007-01-18T23:35:00.000+08:00

MY DEAREST NELSONALA ZHENG GUANG LONG PASSED HIS BIKE TP TODAY!
(18 Jan07)

Am so happy for my dearest nelson. Yay! Am Oh-so happy! Oh my god.
I'm envious.
I'm the october kid and he's the december kid, but he got his a license first. Shites.
Alright I'm just super uber HAPPY! Wheeeee. =)

Right. No school tmr. Thanks to the OpenHouse. But my fyp mates & I are heading to the Airport to meet our client. Like shites. Yuan Sheng will be heading down early to my place to install the whole system on the freakin Xampp server. Argh.

I hope to be back in time to bake the potato salad.

Yes, Upon Quek Liyin's request to bake 2 trays of potato salad. Come to think of it, it is going to benefit all of us potato & egg eaters. Right? *yummy*
Can't wait for nice nice BBQ food. Am so hungry now. haha.
Am wearing my blog colour= Grey for the dress code together with my dearest Nelson. hehe.

Right. My brother's bugging me to use the lappy. He needs DOTA. And I'm giving in because he has work so hard @ Sakae Sushi. haha.

p.s Love will come through by Travis is just oh-so Niceeeeeee!

p.s.s My brother like went to stuff 4 ear sticks into his ear hole. Like omg la! hahaha.

I love to bitch/gossip. Don't you?

2007-01-16T23:56:00.000+08:00

Man. I'm so tired from doing that stupid flowcharts. Not that I did a lot, but multi-tasking is really tiring. =X

Right. Lydia was over at my place this afternoon bitching about everyone & everything. =X Had some friendster sight seeing. Laughing at retarded pictures. Now you always wonder why people put ugly pictures of themselves on friendster. haha. I have no idea why.

Looking at pretty people. Ugly people. People who think they are so great.
haha. We actually thought he could be Ming Hong's brother/cousin. hahaha.Thats funny. Too bad he isn't. *laughs*

Yay. And my brother was at his first day of work @ Sakae Sushi (Parkway). haha. He said it was tiring and all. Hmm. Told him to try it out for a week and see how it goes. haha. So excited & proud of him. haha. Yeahs. You guys can go visit him, if u happen to pass by Sakae Sushi. hehe

Right. Heading to bed now. ZZZZZZzzzzzzzz.

p.s Looking forward to Mackies breakfast tmr. Just like old times dear. *smiles*

Barbeque. Yummy.

2007-01-16T00:11:00.000+08:00

Yay! Barbeque this friday @ Claudine's house. Wheee.

Hotdogs & Beef with maple syrup. Garlic bread. Potato Salad. Chicken Wings. Ooooooo.
*licks lips* Yummyilicious.

Shites. I have got to really do finish the operational manual if I wanna attend this friday.

Goal (this week):
1. Done with the system flow chart
2.Done with the system structure chart.
3. Half of the print screen stuff.
4. and more if possible. =X

Yups. Hope I can do it. Sighs. Or rather I must do it.

Yay! To my babes.

2007-01-13T16:43:00.000+08:00

Yes. Everyone has different priorities in life.

I am going to graduate soon. I really wonder are my poly friends for keeps?
Feel rather upset at the thought of it. We're all going different directions.

I'm happy to say I'm still in contact with my babes. Yes no doubt, there are times we are not able to make it for the gatherings/birthdays or we don't see each other for like 2-3 months or more than that,but heys we still do get to see each other some how and just laugh & take pictures. right????

We all met in secondary school. And look how far we have come. That's almost 8 years of friendship. *smiles*

Sighs. Yay to my babes.
Pearlyn. Jane. Nicole.Claudine. Liyin. Cass. Pearly(if you're still alive in australia. haha. kidding.)
Yuetling & Eeling.

Love love love you all. *muacks*

p.s let's have like a BBQ soon when the poly people graduate. Okies?????
Just miss those times when we bbq, eat and bitch. =)

Post-Sickness Feel

2007-01-09T21:14:00.000+08:00

Am still recovering from the sickness. Lots of cough & sneezes.

The drugs are making super cranky & hot tempered. ( You can ask nelson.)

Got back my term test results. Managed to pass both papers.
POT 30.5/50
ERM 32/50

Haha. I know nothing fantastic. At least I passed right. =) My dear Nelson & Lydia also passed too. Wheeee. *smiles*

Haven't been myself lately. Keep getting upset over nonsensical stuff. I wonder why? haha.

Right. Drugs are taking effect.

Bye.

p.s Yay! pearlyn's sister gave birth to a baby boy yesterday. Wheee. Can't wait to see him. haha.

Sick.

2007-01-07T09:53:00.000+08:00

Just came back from the doctor. Sighs.

Didn't expect to have fever and all. Am feeling so sickly & weak.

Fever. Flu. Sore throat. Headache. Body aching everywhere. What a weekend.

Sorry babes for not meeting you guys. Another time i guess.

Time to go sleep.

p.s I hate being this sick.

Falling sick.

2007-01-06T12:09:00.000+08:00

Waiting for nelson to be back from his bike practical. His revision. He's going to take his TP on the 18th of Jan. Hope he can pass. (Hopefully, you know what they say.)

Am having a slight sorethroat,it making me feel very uneasy. Plus I'm feeling tired & lazy. On top of that, I have been thinking about the FYP thing. It's always behind my mind. It pops up when I'm about to sleep, when i just wake up or when i'm just day-dreaming. Like fuck. Help.

Prolly going to have dinner with the babes again. =) Yay. Laokong's coming. haha.

"You cannot make yourself feel something you do not feel, but you can make yourself do right in spite of your feelings."
Pearl s.Buck

Bitching hours.

2007-01-06T01:46:00.000+08:00

Had bitching time with my babes, Pearlyn & Nicole. Ahh. Love you babes.

Had my fun catching up with both of them. They both look uber shagged from their SIP. I remember I used to have that tired expression all the time when I was working at CAAS. *laughs* ( Well babes, it's going to be over soon before you know it. Hang it there!)

Shared my recent problems with them. I think they understood where I was coming from. You know that disappointment. But like they said, I should not care about such stuff. It's like what for? How I'm feeling towards the situation is normal (As how pearlyn would put it "we're human beings, it's natural for us to feel this way") and I should learn how to counter it.
I think for now, I shall just ignore it. Ignorance is bliss. right? ^_^

Love those bitching hours. *smiles*

Believe

2007-01-05T00:42:00.000+08:00

Ignorance is bliss.

Who would have thought. ( as promised..)

2007-01-03T22:46:00.000+08:00

Right. Who would have thought that the first week of 2007 is this fucking bad.
Who would have thought my dear friend met someone from the chalet.......

Hate FYP. Sucks big time. Seriously, I think I'm going to fail. yes FAIL! Like ahhhhhhhhhhh!

Let's see 2007 resolutions & wishes.....( I'll make like 7 for now)
1. Be done with the freaking FYP!
2.Graduate with a Diploma.
3.For my friends & family to be happy. ( Especially Lydia & My sister)
4.Slim Slim Slim down! (Hopefully)
5.For Zipper to be better.
6.To be able to make the right decisions.
7.To be a nicer person. ( Not that I'm not nice at all. *laughs*)

Anyways tuition is back in business. Wheee. Money Money Money! $_$!
The problem is, I wonder if I can handle 2 students while doing my FYP. Like major fucked up.
Am so going to SHOP SHOP SHOP once i get the money! hahahaha.

Right let the pictures do the talking... *smiles*

Courtesy of Lydia. =) My loves.

Me & Nelson. *smiles*

Retarded pictures of me & nelson.

More to come.. Love ya'll.

p.s I watched BORAT already. Anyone want e dvd. hehe. Good quality!

2007 has come.

2007-01-02T20:36:00.000+08:00

The new year 2007 has come.

Let me see. I don't remember much of 2006 honestly. Obviously i don't have such a good memory. But yes, there were the ups & downs of 2006. I pray 2007 would be a blissful year and that god would guide me in making the right choices.

Firstly, sorry to my babes. I was suppose to spend my new year with you guys @ esplanade to catch the fireworks. I apologised sincerely.

Well, yes I had a huge tiff with Nelson. I thought to myself ,the relationship would probably be over since I was just so tired of quarelling over the same issues. He came over to meet me and we went to east coast park to talk things out. In the end, we did managed to come up with a solution and Wah-la we ended up eating @ Kenny Rogers. *yummies*

Sat by the beach talking & laughing about ourselves on how stupid & childish we were. Took a lot of crazy pictures with him. The pictures are not with me. Yup will upload them soon. =)

We just sat there staring at the sea full of lights coming from the ships. The weather & ambience were just great for ROMANTIKA! *laughs*

Lydia was invited to this house party @ lorong G 22. ( I know. Near right?) Went with her together with nelson. Basically we just sat there, staring at the house..the people..i did not know anyone except for lydia, nelson & lerjun. Yeah. How awkward. Sat there doing nothing but took a few photos.

And then we headed to Clark Quay. We 3 (Lydia, Me & Nelson) waited @ the mrt station for the other 3 (YongXiang, Hansheng & Vincent). They were late. Guess what?

I spent my new year in the mrt tunnel between lavender & bugis. How retarded is that? Uber nuts!

Spent our time @ Hooters. Boobies were all over the place serving the people, but they were ugly. Ate chicken wings & fries. Had Beer! Hoegarden's the best. Yummylicious. Didn't enjoyed tiger beer though. *laughs*

Was kinda high. All of us were singing along to the music being played. hahaha. Had lots of fun.

Obviously, we had our bitching time. But thats for another post eh? Or you'd probably hear from me soon about it. I'm sure you guys want to know. *laughs*

Anyways took the first train home because no cab was available. Reached home @ about 7am.

Whoo. What a new year. =)

My bitch partner for life. =)

Nelson & Me. I look FAT! wait i am fat.

Yeahs.More pictures to come. Once I get em. I have been saying this too many times. hahaha.

Thats all for now.

May this new year bless us all with happiness. Cheers. *muacks*

Something's wrong. And I know it.

2006-12-28T19:51:00.000+08:00

Funny how time passes by so fast. Christmas is over.
Here I am feeling all down & stressed out about what's about to come within the next week or so.

A lot of things have happened lately. And I wonder. Am I really thinking too much as always, or really there is a problem right there. Like I know it's there, but am just not sure if I'm doing the right thing.

I know, you guys will be just saying. I'm probably thinking too much. (as always) Sighs.

Everything happens for a reason. What's the reason behind this?

Do I want to know?

Jingle Bell. Batman Smells. Robin lay an egg!

2006-12-26T14:30:00.000+08:00

Yesh. It's the post christmas feeling. Soon it will be a new year. 2007. Nice number ain't it?

Yesterday's mango's dinner @ Vivocity was -okay-. We ate at this restaurant called Fig & Olive. The chicken & mango chutney sandwich was fabulous. But the rest were kind of you know what I mean.

It was good catching up with the babes. Like really. I miss them all. I miss bitching with them. haha. Not that we didn't bitch that day. Right people? *sniggers*

I wonder if we would all stay together till the end? We are going to next phase of our lives. We would have different pathways and all. Would we still be friends then? Hmm. I wonder.

Anyways. Am waiting for pictures from my dearest laokong & Miss queky Liyin. hehe. =)
Here are a few....

Christmas Tree!

Sarah.Nicole.Jane. *smiles*

Me & Nicole. *muacks*

More to come I guess. Slept @ like 2 smth am. And today!!!!!!!!!
I'm just major pissed. Like i am tired. I slept at almost 3. Had to wake up 9 because there was POT meeting at 11. And I was only told there was a meeting like today!
Went to school early. MEETING CANCELLED! I stood there like an idiot. And yes it was raining!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Like ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! I just wanted to bang my head. Like seriously bang my head man!

Thank god! HeongHan was in school. Accompanied him for his breakfast @ engine school. Did a lot of catching up. It was good catching up with him. Hmm I feel that he has somehow changed. Probably due to the happenings of his family. Hope to catch with him soon. He always telling me, he's so tired.
Thanks heonghan. ^_^

p.s Freaking cold man. Like brrrrrrrrrrr!

Merry Christmas. ^_^

2006-12-25T14:48:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS & HAPPY NEW YEAR!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MANGO!!!!!!

Right. Merry Christmas.

Caught a night in the museum with Nelson's god family @ cathay cineleisure yesterday. It was alright. Very crowded indeed. Yeah they were loads of fuckers on the street while leaving cineleisure round 12 smth am.

Today.

TURKEY SOUP!!!! Delicious. Just had a bowl. Wheeeee. Love turkey soup.

Meeting my babes later for Mango's birthday. haha.

p.s am so going to be BROKE.

Passion Concert.

2006-12-24T11:04:00.000+08:00

Right. Went christmas shopping @Vivocity with Nelson & my brother.

Yeahs we went on our normal walking route. Yeahs topshop/forever21 that stretch.

My brother bought himself 2 shirts from pull & bear. 25.90 each. haha. They were really nice in fact. =) Wanted to get Nelson this grey shirt with a red print, too badders nelson didn't like the fit! Though it was perfect fit for him. haha.

I bought a top from forever 21. And a dorothy perkin denim skirt for christmas. haha. =)
Think when I have money, I'd better buy chinese new year clothing fast before the freaking GST rises to 7%!!!!!!!!!!

Played pool @ Vivocity. Because my brother was having this urge to play. So yeahs. I haven't touched pool in a while, so i lost my touch. So did nelson. haha.

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Passion concert!

Much thanks to Chouchou for getting the tickets for me.
THANK YOU SO MUCH CHOUCHOU!!!!
Hmm. After 2 years or more, I finally see people like Hermawan Hadi, Zhan Hui & Thiam Boon. Seriously they all look the same. *laughs*
We all went to watch the concert. haha.

The concert was great. Classical music rocks. Voilinist rawks man! Too bad they didn't played much music from the Final Fantasy Series. Probably due to the fact their guest appearance was the composer of Chrono Cross/Chrono Trigger.

Overall it was fantastic!

Me & Nelson @ Passion Concert. *smiles*

And another one. Hee.

p.s Looking forward to more Eminence Concerts man. More pieces from Final Fantasy!!!!!

World of Warcraft Madness

2006-12-22T22:27:00.000+08:00

Played 7 hours straight of World of Warcraft. Totally mind blowing.

Guess what. It got me dreaming about it.

Level 60 elites. Blood elf. Ice maiden. Arathi Basin. Level 60 players.They were all real.

This blood elf mage was riding her mount right infront of me man. And she looked pretty & hot.

Oh my god. I had to say it was quite a good one.

Yeah. I know I AM MAD!

Merry Christmas

Couldn't think of one.

2006-12-22T00:50:00.000+08:00

Caught up with YanLin for lunch @ parkway. It's good to see her.
Haven't been really a good friend lately towards her.
Went strolling round parkway and bitching about everything we know. haha.
About life, friends, group mates and family.
It was a nice catching up with her. *smiles*

Christmas is around the corner. Seriously am just looking forward to my aunt's christmas feast and the turkey soup!
Like yummylicious. Ham with honey pineapple sauce. Sweet potatos with marshmallow at the top. Mashpotato.Turkey. And lots more. *licks lips*
Can't wait for the 24th of December.
( I think will be taking pictures of the food. haha. Maybe only)

Anyways, my plans. *changed of plans*
23rd December-VivoCity last minute x'mas shopping, Passion Concert @ 8pm
24th December- Christmas Eve Dinner @ Aunt's place, 950pm movie @ Cathay Cineleisure
25th December- Family, Yuetling's birthday Bash. Catch up with old buddies like heonghan, pearlyn, nicole & CLAUDINE, jane, Yuetling, Eeling, Liyin & Nehji. =)
26th December-Happy 2 year 4 months. Wheee. =)

WHERE AM I GOING TO FIND CASH TO SUPPLY MY NEEDS????

I NEED TO ROB A BANK RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOW!

ANYONE WITH ME?

Right. And I have so much work to do on top of that.
1. My Apel submission. Due end of this week.
2. My POT market analysis. I've done it half way. Hope to finish it by the end of this week too.
3.My FYP. MAJOR MAJOR MAJOR!!!!!

Like Shiteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! I know 3 things looks kind of little. But seriously, it's hell of lots of work especially my freaking FYP. Arghhhh!

p.s I'm just not..................

Holding on to nothing.

2006-12-19T13:27:00.000+08:00

Yay. Lucky's home now. Thank god he pulled through. =)

Been feeling rather low today.

And my blog is pissing me off.

Why is this christmas so dull and empty?

Where's all the fun & enjoyment?

*depressed*

Lucky.

2006-12-17T12:55:00.000+08:00

Friday. 15th December.

Lucky collasped suddenly. I accompanied lydia to the mount pleasant hospital.
Lucky's diagnosis, Heart failure.
Upon hearing it, I so wanted to cry but i had to hold back my tears.
( We can't have 2 people crying right?)
It was difficult to hear and to accept the vet's diagnosis.
Lucky had to be hospitalized to be monitored 24 hours daily.

The next day. Saturday.16th Decemeber.
The hospital had called, lucky had collasped again. I accompanied lydia and rushed down to the hospital immediately.

There he was, resting with an oxygen mask over his tiny head. He was acting kind of strange with the mask on. The mask was heavy and really uncomfortable.

With the vet's instructions, the mask was taken off. Lucky looked better and responded to our calls with a ack! meow. So adorable! I think he was really happy to see Lydia.
Lerjun & Nelson also came to visit lucky. We all each gave him a scratch to let him know we're all here for him.

Today. Sunday.

Lydia told me she called the hospital and lucky's lungs have improved. Yeahs but he still needs monitoring. I'm glad lucky has improved. It is really good news. No matter whether it is slight or big improvement, to me, it is still an improvement. A sign that lucky is trying his best to survive. *smiles*
If not for the pre-planned movie, I would have gone today. Sighs. Will prolly visit him tmr again. ___________________________________________________________________

Apart from lucky, the hospital brought back memories of Pepper. I really miss him so much. I only have myself to blame. For not being able to take care of him properly. I even went down 1 night before he fell ill. I hugged him and said to him, I promised I would not let him die and he would always stay by my side. Yeahs. That was when I was 11.

Pepper. My first doggie!

Up to this day. I regret going to school, when i had the choice of not going. It was a sign which I had failed to see. In the end, I came home, and he was gone. I could have spent time with him. I really could have, but I didn't. Yeahs. I didn't.

Seeing the other sick animals sitting sliently with those sad eyes, hoping there owners would be here soon to take them home. It's just a really sad & emotional scene.

Been having dreams of the hospital lately. Though i can't remember them, but yeahs i could remember episodes where I was just standing at the hospital waiting.

I pray & hope lucky would get better.

A series of events.

2006-12-16T09:37:00.000+08:00

I know I haven't been blogging. There were just too many events that happened over the past week till today.

Nelson's birthday chalet (8th-11th Dec)

Nelson celebrated his 19th birthday @ SAF chalet near changi village. Never thought it would be that enjoyable. Not to mention able to click with nelson's secondary school friends so nicely. What helped was probably the " international language" we all had in common. It was the topic that brought us together. Unbelievable.

Not to forget. Confessions of Weiloon. Simply interesting, that we ( Me, Lydia, Lerjun & Yongxiang) just can't help laughing. Weiloon can really be one of us. ( Bitching friends)

Oh lastly, there was something happening. Am not going to share it. *sniggers*

BBQ food is simply satisfying. No doubt there's so much smoke and charcoal on it. It still taste good. *laughs* Yes. I baked 2 trays of potato salad. Tee Hee.

We should more of this kind of gathering. Simply just laughing & bitching. So fun!!!! Maybe having it when I graduate out of polytechnic. We can laugh and drown in the memories of our poly life.

Lerjun. Sarah. Lydia. I love this picture.

Yeahs. we took a lot of pictures. But I haven't got em. So yeahs this picture for now. =X

Yuppers. Happy belated birthday my dear Nelsonala. I know you love what I gave you *wink*

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I don't love you

2006-12-08T12:33:00.000+08:00

I don't love you by My Chemical Romance

When you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way

And after all this time that you still owe
You're still the good-for-nothing I am not
So take your gloves and get out
Better get out
While you can

When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"

Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless needing
But baby when they knock you
Down and out
It's where you oughta stay

And after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar's just another loan
So fix your eyes and get up
Better get up
While you can

When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"

When you go
Would you have the guts to say
"I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday"

I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday

I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday

Flow @ MOS

2006-12-07T00:15:00.000+08:00

Went to MOS on tuesday night with my sister.Before that we met up with the AVA people for mackie dinner at liang court.
Saw jeremy there as well. He really changed a lot. Look different from the secondary school days. *laughs*
Anyways, it was like the local bands gig. Paul twohill was hosting the event together with some cheena host who totally can't present well.

Saw the whole singapore idol gang. My brother look-a-like, joakim. hahaha. Seriously, they all look the same. Nothing special.

Locals bands were great. Especially Plainsunset!! Am like so in love with their song, Girl on Queen Street. Super Nice.
Hmm missed out on AVA performace. Like shiteeeee. Why I missed it, well................*missing text* Am so going for the next gig if AVA's performing. ( I hope it's not late again!)

Oh. Rum & Coke. Yucky.

Feet hurt to the max. Have 2 disgusting blisters each on my 2 last toes. Ewwwww.

*Random pictures on different occasions

Me and Lydia. Slacking @ FYP. I look disgusting.

Stephie. Sarah. Aida. Yes bored we are.

p.s Looking forward to dearie Nelsonala's birthday chalet! Whee.

Commitment.

2006-12-06T19:06:00.000+08:00

What does the word " commitment" mean?

eyes are red and swollen.

Happy Feet. Happy Weekend.

2006-12-04T22:09:00.000+08:00

What e Wonderful Weekend.

Watched HAPPY FEET @ Tampines together with my sister & shaun. The show just makes you love penguins. Baby mumble is oh so cute!!!! I just want to adopt baby penguins. It makes me want to visit Jurong Bird Park just to see the penguins. I even got nelson to get for me this baby mumble keychain that vibrates. Super Cute! Love penguins. So adorable.

Baby Mumble. *tap* *tap*

Not to forget the AMIGOS! 5 of them. Love their singing.

" If you leave me now, you take away the biggest part of me....
OOOoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo, No
Baby please don't go......"

This song is like ringing in my head. It's actually sang by the Chicago. Love it.

Anyways, shaun pointed out to me that Temasek Poly was offering some courses. They are called executive courses. There's this Pet Care & Managment for companion animals, birds and ornamental fish. Am thinking of taking up this companion animals course. It could prolly improve my chances of being hired by the pet shop to take of the animals. *sniggers*
Anyone interested?

Sighs . Am so in need of $$$$$$$.

Save up for the following:
1.Nelson's present
2.Passion concert
3.Bottles Night
4.Pet Care & Management course ( Companion animals)
5. Holiday
6. SHOPPING.
7.SHOPPING.
8,9,10. SHOPPING.

I need to rob a bank. Seriously.

Pissed

2006-12-04T15:55:00.000+08:00

* I posted a long entry* and blogger had to fucked it all up!

7390 rawks!

2006-12-01T21:31:00.000+08:00

I got my phone. I got my phone. I got my phone! * Jumping up and down* Yes! Yes! Yes. Like finally. wahahahaa.

My powder pink nokia 7390! WheeWhoooWaaaa! I know you people are all jealous!
*evil laughter*

I know you guys want it too!

After last night screams, I woke up this morning trying my best not to initiate the thought to my mum to help me get my phone. So I waited patiently. And seriously, it wasn't easy. I was tossing and turning in bed waiting for time to pass.

And then suddenly my mum calls out to me. " Sarah, what time you want to go?" Hahahaha. I was so happy!!! I was simply smiling.

Yay! It only cost me $99 bucks for the phone. Ain't that cheap? From a $648 to $99. Like oh my god. What a deal. *sniggers* Thanks to my mum & dad. haha. My belated birthday present. Wheee.

p.s Am thinking of going to AVA gig @ MOS this tuesday. Should I?

Bugger!

2006-11-30T22:02:00.000+08:00

Went shopping at VivoCity!!!! It was an orgasmic pleasure. Wheeeee. Shopping rawks!

Yay! Lydia drove us ( Lydia, Lerjun, Nelson and Me) to Harbourfront. And yes! We all bought something. ( Except for nelson.=X)

Oh my god. Vivo is so goddam bloody big! We were there from 245pm till 730pm. I think we only managed to walk half of Vivo. What's more it hasn't even been officially opened! Shop till you drop man.

Haha. We spent the most time at Forever21 and Topshop. Ahhh! I want more! More more!!!!! And guess what Lydia just told me this weekend there's 20% discount and another additional 20% for sale items for topshop/dorothyperkins for cardholders. Like Oh my god!!!!

I NEED $$$$$$$$$$!

If only we had brought a camera. Well, you'd probably get a picture posing as 007! hahaha Remeber people? hahahaha. I shall do it again, if i happen to see it. hahahaha.

Nelsonala bought me this nice top. Reason being I had no 'Kaching'. So thank you honey. I love you. Whee. I love my top soooo much!!!!
(Yeahs. I'm suppose to buy his present. Like shiteeeeee!)

Lydia bought a pair of shorts. Super nice. Am thinking of buying one too!=X Lerjun bought herself a really cool red belt! hahaha. Yay!!! We all bought something. Wahahahah! Let's do it again! ^_^ I am craving for MORE!

Speaking of the my blog title "BUGGER".
Yes. Singtel called to inform me my phone was ready. I was so excited! I just wanted my phone!
The lady said I could collect it by 9pm today because she has reserved one for me.
I came home at like 8pm. Hoping my mum would be nice enough to go down with me just to collect the phone.
I got screamed at for being impatient. Yeahs. My dad sort of joined my mum. So yeahs. It was ugly. Sighs. When will I get my phone? I could have gotten it right here right now at this very moment. Shite. Think I'll get it during the weekend most probably. Sighs.

p.s I love SHOPPING.

p.s.s I NEED/WANT my 7390!!!!!!

End of the milestone.

2006-11-29T18:08:00.000+08:00

Just came back from parkway. Mum drove to exchange her skirt because the zip had some problems. Yeah it's the 3rd time something was wrong with the skirt. Mum was rather pissed with the product. Oh wells.

Mum bought buo luo bao and sashimi to eat. hahahaha. Yummies!!! Prolly going to eat them later. =X

And yes. I went to Singtel to ask when will my 7390 be ready for collection. The sales lady told me it should be out this weekend. *laughs* Am so excited! Powder Pink!!!!! Am so going to love my phone.

My Nokia 7390. *sniggers*

Anyways today's milestone is finally over. I was so nervous, that my hands went cold. But I'm glad we made it. Yay! I guess this time round we presented with the proper explanation.
Was so afraid we'd messed up again. But thank god, we came through the milestone ordeal. *smiles*
Yes Mr Technical was there,Norshida and Jackson. Somehow, they all didn't seem to shoot us much. Mr Technical prolly understood us somehow while Jackson. He just got married like on monday, I guess he had lots of fun last night? hahaha. =X Thats why he sort of helped us with our chart and didn't shoot us at all.
Thank god for blessing us. ^_^

Yay! We did it! Thank you my group members. You know who you are. Like duhs. We got to work hard man for the next phase!!!

p.s Looking forward to Vivocity tomorrow.

p.s.s Happy feet this weekend.*dance* *dance*

p.s.s.s My phone!!!!!! yay!!!

Happy Birthday Clarence

2006-11-27T22:40:00.000+08:00

Happy 16th birthday to my lil brother clarence. Yay!!! 16. Can finally watch NC-16 shows.

Prolly going to get for him a belt from topman for his present. =D

Had kenny rogers for dinner. Wasn't as nice as the outlet at Suntec though. The food were cold in fact. Oh wells. haha.

Mum & Dad bought Gelare's icecream cake for my brother. Rum and Raisin. It was delicious. haha. Right now am having a bit of sore throat. =X
haha. I ever bought strawberry icecream cake from gelare's for nelson's birthday. haha. Ahh. Memories. *smiles*

Next birthday= My dearest Nelsonala's birthday. Can't wait. Have to really study hard for my term test if I really want to have fun at the chalet. sighs.

I think snowy has spilt personality. One moment he's in demon dog mode, the next he's in dazed mode.
Demon dog mode= Biting like a wild monster. Barking angrily like a maniac. Demonic Eyes!!!!
Dazed mode= Siting down. Looking at you with those innocent eyes.
Seriously, snowy's hilarious. *laughs*

Right, am heading to bed now.

p.s I want my 7390 phone. Dammit!!!!

Weekend

2006-11-26T20:49:00.000+08:00

24th November (Friday)
Met up with Pearlyn & Jane at HongKong Cafe for dinner. It's been a long time since I've seen them. Had my CBMB! Cheese Baked-Minced Beef. hahaha. Was really full. Can you believe it? The bill came up to $50 bucks. Yeahs. We were all hungry. Tee Hee. Had a great time sort of catching up with them. Too badders didn't take pictures. Can' t wait to meet up with the rest soon.

25th November (Saturday)
Slept the whole day. Went Waraku Japan house to eat dinner. Had Katsu Don. Porkchop with Curry. It was delicious. Had some of my sister's unagi as well. Quite a nice place. To those who love japo food. It is a MUST TRY! It's around katong area. Wouldn't mind going there again.

26th November (Sunday)
Yay! Happy 2 year 3 months. haha. Yes. I had the sinful HongKong cafe again. Tried something new, Baked Rice with ChickenChop and Pumpkin Sauce. Not too bad. The rice tasted a bit weird though. Am so going to be FAT FAT FAT.
Oh yes. I Bought my phone!!!!!! yay!!!! The 7390, Powder Pink!!!!! Wheeeeeee! Well it's currently out of stock. So I am waiting. Waiting and Waiting. Sighs. Hope it comes soon!!!!!!!

Right. Tommorow is Clarence's birthday. haha. We're going to eat at Kenny Rogers. Yay!!!! The muffins. The macaroni & cheese. Sinful Sinful!!!!! And guess what I haven't excecise in a while. Fuck.

Here's the birthday boy acting gay with his friend. Hint* My brother's the one wearing PINK! Ain't he handsome? Tee Hee.

O'right. I have to go now. Been playing nonstop with the dogs and typing this entry.

Wednesdays. I hate Wednesdays.

2006-11-22T23:21:00.000+08:00

Today's major project day wasn't that bad as I thought it would be. Both Nelson, Yuan Sheng and Lydia were right. I was over stressing myself.

Yeahs guys. I know I am. But I just can't help it. Thats me for you. I STRESS too much. *laughs* Stress is really a killer.

Thank god. We have like something at hand at least. As a team, we have to work together and give it all we've got. Time to think positive.

Anyways christmas is coming soon. Oh my god. Turkey Soup!!!!!! *yummy* ( A definite must try to all!!!!!!)Am thinking of holding a small celebration for my polytechnic mates. Am still thinking. haha. Food Food Food. I have such low resistance on yummy food. I wonder if my Babes 10 are planning anything for christmas? Can't wait. Hopefully by then, all projects would be settled nicely. *cross fingers*

Zipper in the Christmas Mood. Zipper the Grey Grey Reindeer!

To my dearest Nelson, because of the many projects we have to focus on, I forget to tell you how much I love you each day. *smiles*

Love you so much! *muacks*

p.s Looking forward to Friday catch up dinner with babes!. Yay!

Strangled.

2006-11-20T20:26:00.000+08:00

Why do i have this strong feeling that I'm just not going to make it out of polytechnic.
Why is it I just can't do it?
Why is it I try & try & try, I get nothing done.
Everything is nearing. Test. Project datelines. EVERYTHING!

I can't do it.

I can't take it anymore.

Why can't I think positive.

Fuck.

p.s Always be there for the ones you love. You never know when they'll disappear to the next world. Sighs.